Farewell， Viann
这是一个大胆的尝试。 由于我必须用英文写书报告，所以我选择了外国文学来写中文书报告，而大陆文学选择了英语。
我上高中时首先读过这本书。 实际上，我初中时读了一半以上的书。 读这些书给我带来了很多快乐，这在很大程度上也影响了我。 “永别了维安”在这些书中也是一个特别的书，因为它对我产生了特别深远的影响，尽管在当时看来影响很小。
可以想象，那个当时还在上学没有接触到社会的孩子在读到社会上的无助，爱的极端和成年人的绝望时有多害怕。这本书使我无法入睡几个晚上。 书中的故事并不复杂，但却令人难忘。
这本书的作者安妮宝贝似乎对一切的细节都轻描淡写，又似乎对每一个细节都表述得深刻。实际上，她并不使用我们平常所知道的那些写作手法。笔到她的手中似乎就不再是笔，而是一台放映机，她的故事正是这台放映机放映出来的简单的走马灯。
有的时候我觉得这个故事可以有一些转折，不然就这么按照一个趋势走下去，实在是缺少戏剧美感。可是事实和我想的完全不一样，故事就是一直在向一个方向发展，从来不偏离它的基调。某些人本来就不应该见面，于是命运把他们拉扯开，某些人已经无法在这个社会上生存，于是她在郁郁寡欢中死去，那种病态的爱看起来不可或缺，不能替代，已经像是毒品一样上了瘾，最后死亡帮助他断了药，但是他必须忍受断毒的那种痛苦。
灰色就是灰色，既不白，也不黑。
由于这本书是一篇短篇小说集，所以其中的篇目是很多的，我们甚至能在电影院看到其中一些改编的作品。当然，我实际上并不是特别喜欢电影院上映的那几篇，也并不相信电影导演能将那部小说的感觉表达出来。在诸多短章中，我非常喜欢其中的一篇小镇生活，其实原因很简单，对于我，特别是对于当时看这本书的我来说，我急需一个好的结局来治愈自己。这一篇中的女主和男主在波折与命运之后终于能得到安稳，小说中的那个女孩也不再迷恋那些灯红酒绿，恋上了小镇生活，这篇中，男孩终于成功地改变了女孩的精神世界。
但是最后最令我深刻难忘的却是当时吓我最深的那一篇《七年》。那个女孩从最初美好的，单纯天真的样子变成了病态的，精神恍惚的样子，但是却仍然不可思议的美好，以至于让那个男人无法自拔，千方百计地想要娶她。最后发展成的样子就像是那个男的从来都不曾是一个衣冠禽兽，而是一个会为自己的行为负责的并且毫不物质一心付出的好男人，但是女孩儿变得叛逆，不可理喻，性情古怪。
我想稍微讲讲我印象中的那个故事。
那个女孩儿的名字叫蓝。她站在人群中是独特的：瘦瘦的，旧的白棉裙子，光脚穿一对球鞋，外表不算出众，可是她的独立和古怪让人无所适从。蓝因父母离异，从小就过着寄人篱下的日子，尝遍人情冷漠，形成了她自立、敏感、放纵的性格。她17岁时离家出走，她想要摆脱这样的生活，所以不顾一切地和林同居。她的恶堕或许是因为林，又或许是因为她自己的天性，但是她确实是特殊的，因为林能从人群中一眼看出她的不同并且对她产生了病态的爱。他们“相爱”，林爱她，她或许爱林，又或许不爱，林从来都不知道也不会知道，我也不知道。但蓝是为了钱才在社会上闯荡的，和林在一起的初衷不出意外的话也就是为了钱而已，但是她和林之间最终还是产生了一些羁绊。林和她病态的爱，他打她，然后拥抱她，他们有过一个孩子，在小诊所里面葬送了，林忘不了炎热的夏季和当时那个盆子里的黏稠的血液。而蓝为了钱，还常去接一些精神类药物试用志愿者的活儿，这可能也和后面她的抑郁症有所关联。蓝最终下定决心还是离开了林，而林并没有丧心病狂地把她追回来，他或许是理性尚存，又或许是不舍得破坏自己的社会形象。但是他仍旧想念蓝，而蓝在外面做了支教老师，去了很多地方，林还常在杂志上看到她文章和照片。可是蓝回来了，他们又走到一起，蓝接受了林的求婚戒指。后来又弄丢了。
蓝自杀了，因为严重的抑郁症。
在这些故事里我们很难寻找爱的意义，甚至也没有必要讨论三观，因为这种故事看起来并不是想表达某种思考与品格，它看起来就像是一场空穴来风的梦，引人产生无尽的臆想。
如今我不再是当时看那本书的少年了，我也向你告别，微安。
Farewell to Viann
This is a bold attempt. Since I must write a book report in English, I chose foreign literature to write a Chinese book report, while mainland literature chose English.
I first read this book when I was in high school. In fact, I read more than half of the books in my life when I was in junior high school. Reading these books brought me a lot of happiness, and it also influenced me to a large extent. “Farewell to Viann” is also a special one among these books, because it has left a particularly profound influence on me, even though it seemed to be a very bad influence at the time.
It is conceivable that a child who was still in school at that time had not yet entered the society when he read about the helplessness in society, the extremes of love, and the despair of adults. This book prevented me from falling asleep for several nights. The story in the book is not complicated, but it is unforgettable.
The book’s author, Anne Baby, seems to downplay all the details and to express them in depth. In fact, she doesn’t use the writing techniques we usually know. The pen in her hand seemed to be no longer a pen, but a projector, and her story was the simple walking lamp that the projector showed.
Sometimes I think the story can have some twists and turns, otherwise it will follow a trend, it is really lack of drama aesthetics. But the truth is completely different from what I thought, the story is always moving in one direction, never deviate from its tone. Some people should not have met, so fate pulled them apart, some people have been unable to survive in this society, so she died in depression, that kind of sick love seems indispensable, irreplaceable, has been like drugs on addiction, and finally death helped him to break the drug, but he had to endure the kind of pain of drug cutting.
Gray is gray, neither white nor black.
Since this book is a collection of short stories, there are so many of them that we can even see some of them adapted in cinemas. Of course, I don’t really like the films in the cinema, and I don’t believe the film director can express the feeling of that novel. In many short chapters, I like one of the small town life very much, in fact, the reason is very simple, for me, especially for me reading this book at that time, I urgently need a good ending to heal themselves. In this article, the woman and the man in the twists and turns and fate after finally can be secured, the novel of the girl is no longer obsessed with those lights red wine green, love the small town life, this article, the boy finally succeeded in changing the girl’s spiritual world.
But in the end, the most memorable thing for me was the one that scared me the most at the time, Seven Years. The girl went from being beautiful at first, being innocent, to being sick and in a trance, but she was still so beautiful that the man couldn’t help himself and tried every means to marry her. The final development looks like the man was never a crown beast, but a good man who would take responsibility for his actions and give nothing, but the girl became rebellious, unreasonable, and eccentric.
I’d like to tell the story in my mind a little bit.
The girl’s name is Blue. She stood in the crowd unique: thin, old white cotton skirt, barefoot wearing a pair of shoes, the appearance is not outstanding, but her independence and eccentricity are confusing. Blue because of her parents divorced, from an early age living under the fence of the people, tasted the human indifference, formed her self-reliance, sensitivity, indulgence of the character. She ran away from home when she was 17 and wanted to get out of it, so she was desperate to live with Lin. Her bad fall may be because of Lin, or perhaps because of her own nature, but she is really special, because Lin can see her differences at a glance from the crowd and have a pathological love for her. They “love each other”, Lin love her, she may love Lin, or may not love, Lin never know and will not know, and I do not know. But Blue is for money in the community, and Lin together in the original intention of no accident is also for money, but she and Lin eventually produced some fetters. Lin and her sick love, he beat her, and then hugged her, they had a child, buried in a small clinic, Lin can not forget the hot summer and then the sticky blood in a pot. And for money, Blue often goes to pick up some psychotropic drugs to try volunteer work, which may also be associated with her depression later. Blue finally made up his mind or left the forest, and Lin did not be heartbroken to recover her back, he may be rational still alive, or perhaps reluctant to destroy their social image. But he still misses Blue, who works as a tutor outside, goes to many places, and Lin often sees her articles and photos in magazines. But Blue came back, and they came together again, and Blue accepted Lin’s marriage proposal ring. And then lost it.
Blue committed suicide because of severe depression.
In these stories it is difficult to find the meaning of love, and there is no need to even discuss the three views, because this kind of story does not seem to express some kind of thinking and character, it looks like a dream of the air, causing endless speculation.
Now I am no longer the teenager who read that book at that time, I also bid you farewell, Viann.
